We Both Have Struggles That We Don't Understand

We both have struggles that we don't understand. All we know is it's challenging. There are days like these when we choose to be selfish and not try to make that extra effort to put our position on each other's shoes. There will be moments when we feel we deserve all the understanding in the world all the time everytime - no exceptions. It is hard, and it will only get harder. But it will always gonna be up to us when we start to realize that giving each other time, making the extra effort to help, or just not being argumentative - it will go a long way to preserving this relationship and building the respect we both deserve. I may not understand but I will always be here to support.

It All Makes Sense In The End

You long for the touch

you crave for the kisses,

the smothering hugs

you change your routine

just to catch each other

A few moments, that’s all you ask

Can we talk?

or perhaps at least chat

A minute or two, for now it will do,

even when six hours

would not satisfy you

you have stories to tell

of how your day went,

of how your time’s spent

you try to act normal,

to function like usual

but the days when you’re weak

you crumble and fear

if you can hold on much longer

you doubt your resolve

asks if it’s worth it

or will it serve you better

if you moved on altogether

you try to make sense of it

everything you’ve gone through,

everything you still want to do,

accomplish and achieve together

that’s when it hit you

no matter how far apart,

no matter how long it takes

no matter how impatient you are today

you know that there is no

other way but wait

because you’ll always long

for the touch, crave for the kisses,

at least now you have

something to look forward to

to get you by these rough times

and when you see each other

you’ll know why you waited - 

the shivering touch,

the gentle kisses,

the warm embrace

the love you’re too familiar with

you just can’t live without it

Ever After (or how I fell hard for your imperfections)

Remember that song I thought would be awesome for wedding that you also wanted to be our wedding dance? I’m still listening to it! I just find every line, every word appropriate with how much we’ve overcome.

And now we're slightly weathered, we're slightly worn

Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet

I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh

Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side,

And there ain't no current in this river we can't ride

I still believe in ever after with you

It's been a fun ride, and every adversity we've faced and overcame were all the more sweeter because we know that even in the hardest of times, we'd still stick together and find a way to make everything work. It hasn't been perfect, but every moment is all worth it when I know you'll always be there.

Happy fourth and forever, I love you!

Narrowing the List: Tagaytay Wedding Churches

This is it! We're on the initial steps of planning our wonderful wedding. Narrowing the lists of churches in and near Tagaytay is one of our top priorities. These are the churches I found so far with my own personal notes on my experience in trying to book the venue:

Chapel on the Hill - Don Bosco, Batulao, Batangas

Website: http://donboscobatulao.org/page2.html

This is our first choice for our wedding church. I don't think I can describe its interior any better than what's on there website:

The chapel has a circular pattern on the floor and this is called the Labyrinth. As explained in the entrance of the chapel, “the labyrinth is a sacred circle with a single path that leads to its center. Walking the path lends itself to prayer and meditation. This kinesthetic style of prayer is especially valuable during those times when words cannot express the depths of heights of our experience”.

The frustrating part is when I tried contacting all of their numbers, it's either out of coverage or the number is not available. I've even tried calling different times throughout the day. There's not a response even on their landline! I also tried emailing them but it's been 3 days since and I haven't got any response yet. I'm including the contact info I got, maybe you'll have better luck contacting them.

 Telefax No. (632) 743-5614
Mobile No’s. 0926-6163301 |  0906 - 8144474 | 0917-524-7192
Email: info@donboscobatulao.org

We'll Get By

I know it's hard, living like this apart. But I know it will be better and once this has come to pass, we'll just look back and be proud of what this made us, of how it made us strong, how we stuck together. This may seem empty words now but believe me, five years from now it would be one of the highest point of our relationship. This is a defining moment, and I want to prove to you that I will never let go. For the last three years you've done everything you can to keep us together, and I can't thank you enough for giving me a chance, for always believing in me.

And now it's my turn.

I've said this before - I don't want to make decisions for you because I don't want you to have any regrets. I don't want you to have to ask "what if" when someday you have a problem with money. There, you have a real chance to make your mother more comfortable! God knows what I would give to have a chance to do that for my mom. I know you're doing this for her, for your family, and I won't be the one to interfere with that. You are doing good, and I speak for them when I say, they really appreciate what you're doing.

I don't know what you feel, to be honest. I try to understand, but I haven't been away long enough to truly know how it is to live a thousand miles away. But I do know you enough that I know you think about it every night. I try to be there for you as much as I could, but I don't always say the right words to help ease your worries. I'm not good at random and spontaneous talk but I can try to explain it here.

If you ever feel abandoned and alone, think about the days we have spent together. You cooking for me, I doing house chores. Dining out together. Watching movies. Or just walking hand-in-hand. Those are genuine and lasting moments. I am not leaving you no matter what.

If you ever feel you don't understand your job, think about the countless times you've helped an officemate. tax cases? check. audit? check. audit finding? monthend close? validation? tax package? check, check, check. Every step of the way you have not only done your job, you've also helped someone do theirs. I don't even know how you can feel down or frustrated when I know you can do anything.  

If you ever feel you are neglected, don't. Just don't. There was a time when I wanted you to just be happy, because I can't bear your emotions when you are lonely. I couldn't handle it. I didn't know what to say or do to appease you. Now I just want you to be you, regardless of what you feel. I want you to share every moment with me, because that way you'll know I'm always there for you. I'll always be there for you.

I can't foresee the future, but I also know I can't see a future without you.

Pancakes and Patience

I cooked pancakes this morning. I’m no master chef, but I figured cooking is simply just a matter of following instructions. I went out and gathered all the ingredients I’ll need. After a few minutes I’m ready to cook the best-tasting pancake ever, or so I thought.

I cracked two eggs and stirred it in a bowl. The instruction says to use only one, but I figured it would add more flavor to it and I’d be the only one to eat anyway. The best part was no one’s gonna stop me ever if I don’t follow these instructions religiously. Freedom!

Wedding Song: All of Me

I know Des would agree with me in that I don't really like to adhere to popular choices that's why we try to personally handpick every detail for our wedding, even seemingly less important matters such as wedding songs. I guess I just like the idea that everything is personal. It helps create an impression that this event is unique and special - and indeed it is!

John Legend's All of Me is like the Kevin Durant of love songs and is now becoming the most popular choice to win MVP. While Christina Perri's A Thousand Years is still the reigning champ of weddings (I swear this song is played in every wedding I attended for the last two years!), With All of Me becoming a favorite my guess is it won't be long until it takes over.

I know I said I don't often adhere to popular choices, but this time I'll make the exception. If only to hear these lines. Just perfect.


What would I do without your smart mouth?
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

[Verse 2:]
How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

[Pre-Chorus:]
My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

[Bridge:]
Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard

[Chorus:]
'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh