But I have my mood swings. I have a tendency to change my opinion and change my behavior in a snap. You probably know these things by now but it bears repeating just in case your love for me has totally blinded you of all the character flaws I have. These are the things you should know and should really reflect on before you say I do.
1. I'm really a wannabe writer. I had my first blog in 2008. We didn't even have internet that time. Every weekend I lock myself in my room doodling with a pen and constructing sentences in my head. Our trash can would largely include torn pages from my notebooks. Yes, notebooks. I think I used to have three back then. I used to write poetry. I used to write how I feel. I used to make up stories and pretend I'm a famous writer of movies. Once I finished writing something I'd type in our PC, save it in my usb, go to an internet shop and upload it in my blog. Sometimes I just upload it in friendster.
2. I daydream. A lot. I don't know if this is the root cause of being a wanna-be writer or me trying so hard to write has made my imagination go crazy. I probably have twenty or more stories in my head waiting to be put on paper. Procastinator that I am, I haven't even finished a single short story out of my wild imaginings.
2. I daydream. A lot. I don't know if this is the root cause of being a wanna-be writer or me trying so hard to write has made my imagination go crazy. I probably have twenty or more stories in my head waiting to be put on paper. Procastinator that I am, I haven't even finished a single short story out of my wild imaginings.
3. I have spent my entire life alone, and sometimes I miss it. You're caring, understanding and sweet and I know how lucky I am to have you. I've gotten used to having you around but there are just moments that I feel I need to step back and shut everybody down to be able to think clearly. I've always been a thinker, and it's hard for me to process everything around me when I am not alone. It's so easy to go back to your default state, where being alone becomes a sanctuary where I can escape every bad aspect of my life, but in the end I need to get back up and have the courage to face these challenges. And ever since I met you you've been my ticket back to reality.
4. If I have to make a bucket list, starting my own business would be on top of it. Part of it is because I haven't accepted the idea that I'll be an employee until I die or retire from old age. Having grown in a family who relied from paycheck to paycheck, I know how hard it is to just feel trapped when all our finances are piling up. There is not a day in my life that I did not worry about my finances.
Consider this as my last warning to you before we say I do. I'll give you this one last chance to back out...or maybe not. Hahaha.
See you at the altar!
Consider this as my last warning to you before we say I do. I'll give you this one last chance to back out...or maybe not. Hahaha.
See you at the altar!
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